Kestrel
Animalia
I hate this challenge
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Post by Kestrel on May 22, 2021 21:51:40 GMT
Leopard seal and sloth are my surprise jury hits. Why couldn't I have been in a starting tribe with them???
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Kestrel
Animalia
I hate this challenge
Posts: 387
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Post by Kestrel on May 23, 2021 22:11:34 GMT
Rat
In regards to the order of frog/snowy/butterfly vote, no, as the numbers were there me to move forward either way - it was clear that you/lion/bunny would want to vote in the pool of frog/capy/snowy, and that cat and capy wanted butterfly and to some extent snowy gone - which left me and eagle in the perfect swing position. For snowy's vote the lean was actually towards butterfly early on, especially as I was very concerned about the aforementioned 3+butterfly being at f8 with items around, however when cat's name seemed to be pushed by snowy, the decision there became clear. Because of the confusion and frustration of that round (things like butterfly being in a group chat with capy to push different votes while also throwing out capy's name just felt 'wrong' to me, I then said to eagle my next vote would be butterfly - which was the vote. By then I'd managed to discuss frog enough with cat that I knew we then had the votes there.
I've discussed elsewhere why the bunny wagon happened and I'll talk more to them about it in a minute, but you also have to take into context lions idol claim there.
In regards to your points about snowy/butterfly and capy/cat/frog, I believe the reason that cat felt comfy enough making the choice was in part, mine and her relationship - it wasn't a bad decision for her to vote frog, because she knew she could rely on being in the majority with me/eagle/capy after they were gone, but it was a better one for me as I still had more workable options after each vote. I've discussed elsewhere that I feel cat really only had one route to get here.
In merge, I never felt as close to butterfly or snowy as I would have liked, wheras the group of snowy/butterfly)cat/capy is a really interesting ''what if'. It was clear from entering merge, through conversations about who butterfly and snowy wanted to work with (basically, herbivora) that our interests were never going to align
I never really needed to actively 'quash' counter wagons...the momentum was never there for things I really didn't like. But I don't think it's coincidence that after carnivora, the people who were least close to me consistently went home (apart from capy, capy is a special case!)
Bunny, I think, respectfully, youve misunderstood s few things, which is maybe why my response upset you .
I knew about the plan 30 minutes before deadline. I don't think I could have saved you at all - remember, lion has just publicly claimed an idol, so not only did I have half an hour to persuade people into a vote that clearly worked better for me than them, I was also meant to ask them to vote into an idol which may or may not have been real?
The most I could've done was force a tie, but I'd be siding against the people I had the most open relationships with, like eagle, and siding with lion, who had just really upset me. Hell, even lion blamed themselves for you being the boot here. I was upset, it was late, and lion had left me feeling stupid. And suddenly I didn't know if I could go many more rounds of you not wanting to commit to a route to f4, to voting out lion, to making me feel like the choices I was making were wrong (eagle tells me you pmed them that round to explain why voting lion was good for me and bad for them, while at the same time you were pitching me this weird future where rat/eagle/cat/capy conspired together at f7 to boot me?). Its no wonder I felt uncomfortable, and I don't think the responsibility is all on me here.
I should've given you the heads up. I know that. I wasn't in the right head state because of how the rest of the round was going, but yeah, on the four person TC I 100% would've gone to rocks for you and I did owe you the heads up. I can appologise for that.
I think you've misread the stuff about me having a number 1 ally - I've made it clear that me and eagle supported each other to a ridiculous degree. I think I said it's sad they can't be with me here, like cat and capy have each other, but we had a really open and honest conversation about that (a few times). I told you that we had the second amount of PM's, and that was true - eagle was my first. For a long while, emotionally it was you, but I think you weren't able to take risks in your approach to our relationship.
Closing speech Firstly, I want to say again, 'thank you'. This was the most fun I've had in a game in ages, and I genuinely think we had a really strong cast. for various reasons, my social life over the last two years has been incredibly limited. I think I signed up as a challenge to myself, and I've so enjoyed the human connection with all of you. I enjoy playing these games in part because I get to exercise all the weird, niche, dormant bits of my personality - talking about blood on the clock tower, or the future of deepfakes, or high-speed trains, or being in recorder club at school. And also those deeper, more important conversations - job interviews, people starting to socialise again, exams, social work careers. The idea of a 'social game' has always been a slippery topic in deciding what is important when assessing threat level, and then deciding a winner - what makes a winning game? Is it challenge wins, using group chats the most efficiently, finding items, being the 'nicest', having the most accurate relationship charts, winning majority rules....for me, I've always found the 'balance' between the 'social' party (making genuine, human connections) and the 'game' part (making strategic and structural decisions) hard to achieve. However, the thing I'm most proud of this game is that I've finally been able to show a game that demonstrates my 'social' and 'game' skills to the best of my ability. I finally had things to say about the 'structure' of the game, finding idol clues and using the fitness challenge to be a positive, rather than a negative! I've been able to be an 'information hub' throughout the game, using my strong social skills to form real connections, that led to a web of information and very rarely being in a position where I had to make a bad choice. Any mistakes I've made have been personal, and they are always easier to identify in hindsight. I was able to manage my threat level, at the same time ensuring that the people that were least close to me went home. I was able to share some very grey thinking around votes, without it being duplicitous. I was able to be in a swing position without ever drawing too much attention to myself - I always had a good next step which led me here. I consistently worked to be in a position where the votes that were on the table benefitted me, and opened up rather than close down my options. Plus, I was able to form so many positive relationships and I spent such a large proportion of this game enjoying it for what it is - a game, which is meant to be enjoyable. Thank you, seal, for your question reminding me of that. I used my social skills to take risks in relationships - forming a new kind of bond with capy, sharing way too much information with eagle, investing time and effort in frog, and more. My fellow finalists have been great, and I'm in the lucky and privileged position that I can sit here and be proud of their FTC performances. But I'm also really proud of my own game. I think I've shown that in terms of weaving together the skills needed to play a winning game, I've got the ...edge.
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