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Post by Elephant on Apr 1, 2021 22:01:08 GMT
I was so dang proud of us for having such a good time for the challenge. I thought for sure we'd be the fastest. But holy shit, 10 mintues?! Like, I'm sad, but I'm also super impressed.
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Post by Elephant on Apr 1, 2021 22:48:58 GMT
So here's the thing... Chickadee was almost a candidate for a vote last time, but the tribe all agreed to kick out Dog. Now that we're in tribal council AGAIN, I think most people will fall back on choosing Chickadee. And Dee is freaking out. They're super paranoid, which is why they asked to ally with me. But what the heck am I supposed to do? I don't want anybody ELSE to leave. When I allied with Chickadee, I fully accepted that I might (and probably would) betray them at some point, but I thought we'd have a couple more challenges before that had to happen. Now I feel like I HAVE to help them.l It's too soon in the alliance to betray them. Right? So I have to choose someone else to vote for... Just someone random. They probably wouldn't have enough points to get voted out anyway, so it shouldn't harm them (maybe just make them squint suspiciously at the rest of the tribe for the rest of the game). That's the only way I can think of to try and "help" Chickadee. Because I can't stop anyone from voting for them. If I try to talk people out of choosing Dee, they'll suspect I have an alliance, and then they might turn on me.
I really, really like all the other animals in our tribe. I don't want to vote for anyone else just in case someone else is playing a similar game to mine and ends up voting for them too. What a sucky way to accidentally kick out one of my friends, right?
But I don't want them to vote me out, either. And other than Chickadee (who didn't help at ALL in the last challenge), I'm the only other easy pick that I can see. Because even though I was working with them the whole time, it doesn't LOOK like it. It looks like Snow and everyone else did my work for me. And since I wasn't the one who came up with Snow's strategy to put the puzzle together IN THE FORUM (like, seriously, Ellie, that really was the most obvious move; why didn't you think of that?)... I might have cost us the challenge. If I had done it Snow's way in the beginning (or, hell, put aside my pride and realized their idea was better and moved on from mine), then maybe we could have won. So maybe people will vote me out. Because I seem like a liability. A likeable one, yes. More so than Chickadee, it appears. But that mindset won't last forever in this game. And I wouldn't blame them for voting me out. But the only way that'd be okay is if I got transferred to another tribe and someone else got eliminated. No, I don't want to leave my tribe, but I would rather stop talking to them and try to fit in with the other animals than be kicked out completely. I'm not ready for that. I'm just getting to the point where I feel like I'm getting the hang of things.
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Post by Elephant on Apr 1, 2021 23:07:28 GMT
*deep deep breath*
Maybe I should still vote for Chickadee. Just because I started an alliance doesn't mean I have to follow it, right? I did it to be nice! See, I could vote for Dee since I'm fairly certain that most of the tribe will vote for them. Maybe a couple will vote for me, too, which is fine, whatever. But if I vote for Dee, then I can make sure that they have more votes than me.
The only flaw with that plan is that I can't guarantee that Dee gets eliminated if our tribe votes them out. We could have a repeat of what happened with Dog and Shark. And the only thing worse than Chickadee finding out that I betrayed them... is them finding out I betrayed them AND sticking around to potentially sabotage me later.
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know...
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Post by Elephant on Apr 1, 2021 23:39:50 GMT
Ugh I caaaaaaan't with Chickadee right now. They're all "I fucked up. I hope I win the challenge, I guess." Like, I get where they're coming from, but geez, lighten up on the defeatism, alright?
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Post by Elephant on Apr 1, 2021 23:43:28 GMT
Like, how am I supposed to be a loyal ally to someone who has NOTHING TO OFFER?
And maybe I'm missing something, but I really don't think so.
My initial reaction to them was "nope, I don't like the vibe." Maybe I should stick with that. Maybe it doesn't matter if they find out I voted for them, because if in the best case scenario (for me, anyway), no one votes for me because they just want Chickadee gone and they don't blame me for losing the challenge, then it'll be pretty dang obvious that I voted for Dee, too. And if they switch to another tribe and don't get eliminated? So what? So what if they become an enemy? I'm a tough girl. I can handle it.
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Post by Elephant on Apr 2, 2021 0:11:56 GMT
Shit. We're 48 minutes away. I have to make my official decision soon. I'm not ready! My mind keeps spinning around with all these conflicting emotions.
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Post by Elephant on Apr 2, 2021 0:16:26 GMT
The easiest choice is Chickadee. So why do I hesitate? Is it wisdom or fear that makes me want to cover up my tracks and pretend like I'm being loyal to Dee... while betraying someone else? No, it's not actually betraying them. There's no way anyone else is getting enough votes to be kicked out. The other animals seem pretty unanimous.
Is it wise or foolish to go against that?
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Post by Elephant on Apr 2, 2021 0:22:59 GMT
Okay... I'm testing the waters with Chickadee, seeing where they're at. Maybe I can vote for whoever they vote for. Cover up my tracks. That could be risky, though, because there's no guarantee that I know what the other animals are going to do with their vote. I think I know... but then again, I didn't expect anyone to vote for me last time. People can surprise you.
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Post by Algae on Apr 2, 2021 0:27:29 GMT
What are the pros and cons of the different votes you could cast?
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Post by Elephant on Apr 2, 2021 0:34:58 GMT
Ah, this might help me... Who would I rather have find out that I voted against them? Chickadee? Or any of the other tribemates, who I have no solid reason to vote out? If Chickadee finds out, maybe they'll be eliminated and I won't have to deal with it at all. And even if they stay in the game, yeah, they probably won't like me that much anymore. I think I can live with that. But would I want any of the other tribemates to turn against me later on?
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No. No, I wouldn't.
So the question is: do I want to stick with a flimsy alliance that I agreed to out of niceness and to try and protect myself against the slimmest of chances that Chickadee might cause me harm later... or do I want to stick by my friends, who I haven't allied with officially, but with whom I have a stronger bond that could break if they have reason to suspect me now?
. . .
It seems like an obvious answer, right? It's just my over-analytical, empathetic, indecisive, non-confrontational heart that's making this hard... Right?
27 minutes. One way or another, I have to make a choice.
And it's super nice to have Confessional so I can write all my thoughts down to help me choose. 😆 All of my many, many thoughts.
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Post by Algae on Apr 2, 2021 0:36:27 GMT
We love hearing your many, many thoughts!
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Post by Elephant on Apr 2, 2021 0:49:49 GMT
I'm so glad! 😊 It's like yelling out into the void and then getting a hug in return. Or at the very least, a patient, long-suffering smile.
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Post by Polar Bear on Apr 2, 2021 1:07:46 GMT
I second Algie's statement. It is certainly fun hearing your thoughts
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Post by Elephant on Apr 2, 2021 1:25:14 GMT
OH THANK THE LORD! I went with my gut and I got the result I wanted. Wooooooooooo! Bye bye, little bird!
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Post by Elephant on Apr 2, 2021 3:35:24 GMT
Well, well, well, mods. You've come up with quite the challenge this round. I'm a little nervous about the timing thing, but as long as I prepare efficiently, I'll manage. And I'm not gonna lie, I am having WAY too much fun coming up with the rhymes.
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